I had almost forgotten that I had a blogspot. So much has happened since my last post but I write today with a heavy heart. One year ago my beautiful Sister Sheila took her own life. I thought I had been through my worst days with Dad's illness and death, but this was the worst day so far. When I lost Cari to her battle with breast cancer in 2005 it was apparent that death was a blessing of sorts. She would be free from her physical body that was full of cancer and be perfect, healthy and whole with Father in Heaven and all those who loved her in Heaven. Sheila's death was such a shock. I will truly never get over it. I have many regrets about her. I am sorry that I didn't realize how truly ill she was. I wish I would have forced her to have a relationship with me. I realize that too was part of her sickness. The severe mood swings that have been going on for years. I guess I must reconcile now that she too is free from her earthly cares and is with those who love her as well. I just never got the closure and will never make any sense of this tragedy. The beautiful blonde girl who had it all. That is what she was and hopefully still is.
I love you and miss you Sheila....my Sister...my Friend.
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