What the heck am I doing here?

What was I thinking when I took a job?  I never should have come to the rescue just for Health Insurance.  I realize in retrospect that we had always survived in the past and I am sure we would have survived in the future...yet here I am.  I suppose I should be glad that I have a job with benefits, insurance, and a pension.  The thoughts of lasting here long enough to realize the pension is depressing.